My fellow bloggers,
So I'm not sure if there is suppose to be some sort of formal introduction to creating your first blog or something, but lets just skip that awkwardness for right now. Wow. Where to begin? So basically my life is just a normal life of another American teenager, trying to find who I am, and trying to fit into blah blah blah. I don't want to talk about that right now. So anyways today I went for my first job interview!!!! ahhhhhh... Any who, yea, it was awesome and scary but "hey!" I'm still alive. It was nice to finally get an interview after years of trying to get a job. Hopefully this goes well. Pray for me guys! So on top of attempting to get a job, I have to begin worrying about ALL THIS COLLEGE CRAP!! Want my honest opinion? ("Yes, yes Cece WE do!!) Ok relax guys. But honestly I could not give two flying shits about this all. I just want to enjoy being a teenager, a kid for crying out loud (that's a weird expression now that I come to think about it). It's all so much at once, we need to get recommendation, complete packet after packet, choose a major, choose the right college, do you want to live in a dorm? or do you want to live off campus? do you want to go out of state? What do you want to be when you grow up? Wait, can I actually grow up first? then I'll get back to you on that answer. But yea, so lets try and forget that this stuff all exist at the moment because I don't want to bore you with my stressful life. I actually hate complainers but I tend to complain alot (wait does that mean I hate myself?) Wow, that some deep stuff right there, looks like someone needs to talk things out with theirself. Moving along.
So the other day I was walking downtown (Ok im lying, it was actually like 3 years ago, but who's countin?) and there was some guy who was yelling at me and telling me "If you don't take this packet, you'll burn in hell and God won't save you and I like jelly beans because purples my favorite color". (Well maybe the last part about jelly beans and purple were a lie, I sorta zoned while he was yelling at me so I had to substitute the last line) But it was soooo weird, and it caught me off guard. Like if you believe in God, and believe he is such a good guy and loves EVERYONE then why will he throw me in the pits of hell and leave me to rot? Yeah. So basically, lately I've been thinking about this God and Christianity thing and it honestly all confuses me.
I was raised a Catholic, aka "I don't really go to church and all that bible stuff, but I'm still Catholic". But yea so I've really been looking into the history and all that of Christianity, and it all does not add up to what I was taught. All this religious stuff is basically a tradition of whats been passed down from generation to generation, culture to culture, and country to country. I simply cannot grasp the fact that God exist, after educating myself on the history of Christianity and how it was all formed. I mean I want to believe in a God because I was taught to, but I feel that his tale is just as much as true as Santa Clause. Just like Santa Clause was made up to make Christmas seem more appealing to children (like presents isn't appealing enough) I sorta have a feeling that the Christan/ Catholic God was made up to give people hope. Although I don't feel much hope knowing something is a lie. Look, honestly I am not here to say that God isn't real or that you're wrong (If you do believe in God or of that sort) I'm honestly just venting and trying to put the pieces all together.
Through all my thinking, I've come up with the idea that I don't believe in religion. Wait, that's not an idea, that's a statement. I, Ceceilia, hereby declare that I do not believe in the concept of religion and find it to be detrimental to society and the world in general because it creates rupture and segregation among different beliefs. I do not believe in the Catholic/Christian God either or any "God" affiliated with any religion. I do however believe their is a creator who created everything we see today, and believe there is good and evil in this world. Well give me some feedback people. Let me know what you think on this whole thing, please once again I am truely not trying to offend anyone, I just am figurering things out for myself. Wow sorry, I can't help but notice I rambled on for THAT long about religion and crap. That's sooo unlike me. ha.
